What a dumbass

Tuesday!
Cam: "So you're coming to my house again on Saturday right?"
Shay: "More than likely."

Saturday!
Cam: "You still coming over tonight?"
Shay: "Ummm...idk. I'm going to be with (random niggas name) tonight..."
Cam: "......aight man."
Shay: "Why you say it like that?"

Why the hell, under any circumstances, would I be perfectly fine with my girlfriend abandoning the ONLY night of the week we can chill at my house.........SO SHE CAN GO KICK IT WITH SOME OTHER NIGGA?

This is a serious question by the way, and to add a little irony to this I present you a quote directly from her blog...

"but yeah he's pissed
cuhz im kickin it with kemaine tonight. oh well. he's my friend and
someone that wants to be around me so im there."

Apparently, in her head, the fact that someone wants to spend time with her is very important. What apparently is more important however, is the nigga that pops up out of nowhere, NOT the one who expressed interest in spending time with her far ahead of time. You know, I will be perfectly 100% honest right now, not knowing who will read this.

This relationship is not going to last.

We've been together 3 weeks and I can already tell. However, it won't be for my lack of effort, it will be hers. When I ask for a break it was apparently obvious to her that I would want one sooner or later, because I'm "not ready for a relationship and all the feelings that come along with it."

I think that's bullshit considering SHE'S the one who avoids feelings all the damn time, going out of her way to try and convince me she doesn't care and saying shit like "Oh well" or "Whatever."

When I go out of my way every single fucking day of the week to either take her to school or pick her up from school and all the fuck I ever ask for is for her to spend the night with me on Saturday, who's really not making the effort when it doesn't happen?

Maybe I'm being too nice and she's feeling like she can walk all over me, whatever man. All I know is I've made it a point to say I want this to work, but I'm putting allllllll the effort in. So now it's her turn to show me she wants it to work. If it doesn't, I already know I'll be sad and writing a blog about how much I miss her but in the end it will be for the better. I'll follow her lead, and since right about now that consists of being distant, now it's my turn.

Three weeks and I'm already this frustrated? Maybe this wholllllle thing was a bad idea...