Saturday night: Alone Again

So, it's March 14th, 2009.

Me and Aguadia's one month anniversary.

I had planned for her to come over tonight, cleaned up the house a little, bought her a gift and a card and generally had been looking forward to her company tonight.

She's not here though. Once again, I decided to confirm whether or not she would be coming over tonight and she asked me if I would be mad if she said no. I told her I wouldn't be mad, and she said that was good because she was already drunk off her ass.

Ok, cool. I'm not mad, just like I said I wouldn't be.

Disappointed?

Helllllll yes.

I read an article in Psychology Today (a magazine) that was talking about the 10 biggest relationship annoyances and it was talking about how your partner might not necessarily do something terrible, it's just that the meaning YOU attach to it makes it seem terrible. Guy leaves toilet seat up, girl tells him he's inconsiderate of her and doesn't think about her needs. Not the best call.

So I could sit here and bitch and complain about how she takes me for granted, puts me on the back burner and how selfish she is. But I won't. She wants to hang out with her friends and drink, ok, fine. Maybe she doesn't put as much emphasis on this anniversary as I do, that's merely a conflict of perspective.

However, although I won't sit here and bitch about it, I also won't BE a bitch about it. She should know how wrong she is for not wanting to be with me tonight, and though I won't hold it against her, she will be forced to come to an understanding of why I feel played like I do.

I won't end this blog saying all the mean things I wish I could.