AIG bonuses and bad combinations

My mom sent me some money today, a much needed surprise.

So today I start getting a flood of shit from the streets about my girl. Nothing too serious, other than I heard she's still messing with some dude. And I was told his supposed name. The interesting part is, while I would hope all rumors could be dismissed as unfounded, I've actually seen texts from him in her phone. One of them even made me lowkey mad when I saw it at first. So, hmmmmm...

Then while I'm bowling contemplating how to play the situation, I see Djarnette come out of nowhere and throw a bowling ball. Naturally I assume my girl is with her too, and I was right. So when I turn around the first sight I see of my girlfriend is her shaking her ass about a foot away from Lil Snapp's face.

So while everyone there tells me shit like "Fuck that you better go check her that was mad disrespectful!" or "Nigga that's one of those girls you have to kick to the curb and let come back to you." I ignore her even being there for about an hour. She didn't come say anything to me, and I didn't say anything to her. Then when it's time to go I walk my ball to the car and have this conversation...

Shay: So, where are we going? *all smiles*
Cam: I don't know where you guys are going...
Shay: Well where are you going cuz we're following you. *all smiles*
Cam: I'm going home actually...
Shay: What's wrong? *all smiles*
Cam: A bad combination of bullshit today.
Shay: Bullshit from me? *smile fades*
Cam: Ummmm, yeah, you could say that.
Shay: Well what did I do?
Cam: That's exactly the problem. I don't know what you did.
Shay: You don't know what I did? Oh, ok, whatever. *all smiles* *walks away*
Cam: Exactly.......'whatever'.

She went to Denny's, I'm at home and unless she texts me I ain't textin her.

I don't know exactly how to pinpoint this but I feel weird. Like, I trust her, but with non-love-blinded people around me telling me to abort mission, it's hard as fuck not to listen to them. Then, I feel like I'm giving her too much room because apparently she thought giving my friend a practical lapdance (exaggeration) right in front of me was a perfectly legitimate thing to do. So I try to listen to that Psychology Today article and detach the meaning I attach to that (complete disrespect and disregard for my emotions/mild emasculation) and see things from her view. Yet, even then the answer (being there was a song she liked on so her natural reaction was to dance and my friend just happened to be right there) still seems like she did something dumb without thinking first.

So, my solution?

Take a shit, maybe watch some Daily Show/Colbert Report and go to sleep.

While wishing I could afford a sack.