Summer-y summary

It's getting hot out here, but not nearly as hot as it's GOING to get to be fair. It's 90 out right now, but I'm sure we'll have an average of about 100 during the summer. Fucking southern California deserts...

I kicked it with my cousin for the beginning of the day today, we did lots of riding on the freeway with the windows down and the music bumpin. I swear I love my cousin so much lol. When we're chillin together I don't give an aviated fuck about anything else. She's the one person I can actually let be real close to me now.

Speaking on that, I am now noticing an involuntary shift in my persona. I'm not exactly shunning people or being an asshole but I'm starting to get cold. Ironically it's because I'm not like them and their flaws are starting to irritate me more. But still, I chill.

Then I told Amanda what I was thinking about her the other night. I have so much love for that girl it's ridiculous. I not only see what shes going through but I can relate and truly understand. Everyone else can show her empathy while I can show her sympathy. I wish she opened up to me more though, but I don't think she sees what I see between us, for now at least. Then again, trying to explain what I see between us is incredibly difficult as the lines are so totally blurred it's hard to tell where they even might-maybe-possibly begin....... that's for another day though.

For now I'm going to get ready for work and see what kind of trouble I can get into tonight lol.

Gold Watch