Can It Be?

I slept better last night than I have in a week. Either I'm finally really over it or I've gotten myself so exhausted worrying about it that I HAD to sleep lmao.

So yeah, shit got just a little deeper with the ex. That girl needs Jesus, fuck it...

that girl needs Oprah!

I could only listen to so much truth from my friends and my idols before I'd be dumb for holding onto anger for the situation. "What could you do to me? It's not new to me!/ Sue me, FUCK YOU, what's a couple dollars to me?" especially. I was mad as FUCK though for about 10 minutes after I found out she was sending Dell pictures, I have to admit. I'm surprised with all the shit I punched I didn't break my hand lmao.

I got kind of mad at Dell for not taking himself out of the situation and allowing shit to even reach that point. He was pretty calm about it though and told me it's not his fault she sent him pictures, which is true. He DID tell me he was still going to have her over at his house for spring break though which as much as I trust him not to do anything with her, is still wrong to me because he would BLACK if I did something like that to him but that's something we still need to talk about.

And yet, I'm trying to think whether or not I would even be mad if he DID have sex with her. The immediate reaction, at least now, is no. I don't think there's too much more she can do to prove herself to be grimey, so I can't even be mad at her if she just further proves that point. At the same time though, I think it would be kind of foul for Dell to do that because he knows how I felt about her. We can sit here and say "Oh well we had something going before you were around." all day but your horny little teenage selves can't hold a flame to the feelings I had. So I guess we'll have to see what happens.

I didn't even feel like writing this blog because it's pretty fucking pointless, but I thought I might just need it for archival purposes in the future so I might as well. I hope my psychic powers aren't as good as they've already proven to be. =/

Anythang