My minds racing

It's crazy because these days I have so much going on that I never have time to focus on any ONE thing.

Cordell has forgotten who the fuck I am.
My mom seems to be forgetting I'm my own, grown man.
I'm trying to find myself a girl to kick it with.
I'm trying to find out how I can help Amanda to the best of my ability.
I just realized my 'drug' is much harder to quit when I keep looking at it.
My inner circle is thinning.
My attitude is getting worse.
I wish I had more money so I could get a reliable car.
I'm trying to finish this semester strong with all A's.
I want to make music but I need a producer to really vibe with.
I'm still dealing with the idea that nobody understands me.

And a bunch more shit that is too much to list.

It's not even overwhelming or bringing me down I just end up feeling like I need more time alone. I have plenty of chances to go out but I tend to avoid them a lot more now than I used to. I guess it's all pretty much pointless.

Life has been throwing puzzles my way since conception, and while I keep getting more clever, they keep getting harder. This is all a new puzzle and I have the confidence that I can figure out where all the pieces will fall. Right now though, I'm just kind of separating the edge pieces from the pieces in the middle.

I just need to take a deep breath and remember who I am, internally, so that I don't let things overwhelm and frustrate me anymore.

My quote to live by for the past couple weeks?

"You've tried everyone else, now give yourself a chance." - Charles Hamilton

Just trying to figure out how to be just as successful at the same game as everyone else, but by playing by my own rules.

The Sound Is God (writing to, soon...)