Epiphany

I'll say this real quick and get on to the rest of the blog....

It's like we split a mirror.

Moving on, so I'm in the backseat coming back from the comedy show in L.A. listening to Drake. I'm thinking about underground rap and mainstream rap, and how they compare to each other. Mainstream artists who get extremely popular extremely quickly usually disappear just as quickly. Then, underground artists stick around for what seems like forever (if you were a huge Canibus fan back then, you still are now) but they never get to the point where they can truly cross over into a majority. Underground artists have a very loyal fanbase and that's about it.

So I'm thinking about what kind of artist I want to be and I don't really want to be either. I will not be happy as a flash in the pan, and I won't be happy isolated. I have this story to tell and I want the whole world to hear it, but if I do it to quickly or slowly, I fall into either one of those categories. So I started thinking about artists that really transcend those boundaries and thought about Jay-Z. He is so popular in the mainstream and has songs everybody knows. Then in the mainstream, he's still respected as AT LEAST top 10 emcees of all time across the board. I realized that's kind of how I want to be.

Now, whether it be with my music or my life, to really achieve that I have to find a balance. I have to show qualities that will make people like me, or to attract them, and once I've achieved that I have to give them the REST of me to make them love me. A lot of people might judge me too quickly and get me all wrong but I think I can et past that. Jay-Z had that same problem, because while he was putting out singles that were seemingly shallow, he let the people who bought the album hear the true him...

"For those that think Hov' fingers bling bling'n
Either haven't heard the album or they don't know english
They only know what the single is, and singled that out
to be the meaning of what he is about
And bein I'm about my business, not minglin much
runnin my mouth, that shit kept lingerin
But no dummy, that's the shit I'm sprinklin
The album width to keep the registers ringin"


And in true Hov fashion, he spit that on a club track. lmao.

So I have to figure out how I'm going to keep lots of people coming to me, and at the same time keep the people I really need around.....around.

So, I guess in that sense I'll be changing. But I won't be changing who I am, I'll just be changing what I seem like to allow myself more opportunities.

Lost Ones