Such a beautiful color....

I can't do this blog exactly like I want to. Think about it: I spent a whole weekend with the majority of my time staring into the sky. How much I thought about doing that is near infinite so rather than reporting on all of that, I kind of have to write this blog for archival purposes.

Erin, Mariah, Kiani and two new girls, Kayla and Iman. Erin is good, she's starting to get on her grind with niggas but that's only to be expected and I trust her to make the right decisions. Mariah is WAY nicer now than she was when I first met her, and I also trust her in terms of dudes. Kayla is the good new one, she has some issues that she doesn't entirely open up about and she's incredibly self-conscious but she has a certain strength I can see and a certain spark in her that frighteningly reminds me, of me. Iman is a bad look, and she'll drag Kiani into her bullshit sooner or later. Sad, but probably true. I would love to be wrong though.

Why did I only talk about the girls? Because they are the future. Niggas will be niggas regardless, but I'm hoping I can make an impact in making sure these girls don't OD on all the bullshit going around. They seem to respect my opinion, so I'm doing ok in that sense for now at least.

But just to say it, RJ, Mharsaun, Marques, Gio, Schaffen are all doing well and are also menaces to spell check lmao.

Dell hit me up, and he apologized, yet I still think we need to speak face to face to get back on track.

My crush is over, I think.

My car is probably on it's way out the door, and unfortunately I'm not 100% that the money I make will qualify me for a loan to get a new one. Faith endures though.

Cousins car broke down, and she's probably going to be in the same position as me, or vice versa, not sure...

And honestly, I'm going to stop writing this blog, my mind is on some other shit right now and I feel like I'm confusing you/myself so.....yeah.