The sky might fall...

I kind of sat back and looked at my situation. I realized that ever since I became single, I've made attempts to fill the void that was left open. I watched maybe 4 NBA games during the regular season, but now I'm ALL in the playoffs. I have this sudden interest in buying a motorcycle, to the point that I'm seriously considering signing up for the classes to earn a license, at least.

All of this makes me question exactly how "over" her I really am. I've avoided even the slightest chance of knowing where she is, what she's doing, who she's with and all that. It was mad addicting. The drug to which I referred. So I'm curious as to whether or not even looking into that a little would cause me to relapse, or if I'd find myself better off...

I think I've got to try just a taste again, and I'm lowkey scared lol, but I think it will be interesting.

"The sky might fall, but I'm not worried at all"

...... (10 minutes later)

I just sat here and cried a little. I smiled a couple times but I know I had a blank look on my face for the majority of the time. Yet, I felt happy. Happy that my words got through. Happy because I am more than sure I'll get to live that day I fantasize about.

Happy because I know now that I'm not avoiding the situation out of fear, but instead out of respect. I felt some of that emotion building up inside me release itself. Maybe if I say the right things I can really make a difference. That realization is comfort enough, in and of itself.

Sky Might Fall