I think it's funny...

So after the dust settled, we both came out feeling a little different about our relationship as a whole. I realized how much of a "nigga" I really have the potential to be, and so did she. The rest is self-explanatory lmao.

But like now, we're not having sex. This is the funny part cuz like, I don't really give a fuck anymore lol. When we first came to that conclusion I was buggin in my head trying to quantify exactly how long it would last because I really wanted to do it again. But now, fuck it, like it's a completely dead and irrelevant issue to me. She ALWAYS brings that shit up though like it's stuck in the back of her head and keeps bugging her.

Me: "Damn you used to kiss me all passionately but now I just get pecks and shit..."
Her: "Yeah and we USED to do a whole lot of OTHER stuff too!"

Her friend: "If I'm not gettin any now I can just find someone else to get it from shiiiit."
Her: "I know huh girrrrl, that's what I'm saying because WE sure aren't having sex anymore haha!"

Me: "Man, lol, forget you..."
Her: "BLOW ME! .......oh wait, we're not doing that anymore ahahahaha"


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Like seriously, let it go. lmao.

Anyways, I saw one of my friends at work today, found out her name is Britney and also that she's a fucking dork which is cool. I could honestly see myself hanging out with her on a modestly regular basis, so we'll see what I can work out lol.

I realized on the way from work that I really am loving my life right now. I found the girl I was looking for and with that everything seems to be calming down and falling into place for me. I still have a lot of work to do, I know that much, but now I feel like I can really do it with a much more ummmmmm 'me' demeanor. I don't know, I just need to get some sleep now, I'll update again sooner than later.