Blown out of proportion

Damn, this girl is getting in my head...

The strange thing about this all is that now that I'm actually starting to think there might be a relationship to come out of this, and my perspective has changed. I've got all kinds of songs on my mp3 player that at the very least MENTION some dude taking some girl from her man.

So, now, I'm trying to imagine what it would feel like to be letting my girl out knowing that all types of dudes will be trying to get at her. The crazy shit is that almost everyone in a relationship thinks that their partner doesn't cheat on them, because if they really did think that there probably wouldn't be a relationship anymore....

But so many people STILL cheat!

So, I'm basically scared of being the simp ass nigga who lets his girl go out and have fun thinking she's at the club with her friends when in reality she's fuckin some other dude allllll the time. That's the crazy shit about trust, it's out of your hands.

I remember my neighbor came home one day and found his wife cheating on him. This guy was at least like 45, and this shit had me buggin. Like, he's probably been with her for years and years and been thinking he had a wonderful marriage and that she would NEVER do some shit like that to him. Then one day he gets off early to find some shit like that! So for the next few days he can't sleep, knowing that if he caught her once, she's probably done it many more times, and the whole time he just kept on loving her and providing everything he could for her.

That's some really messed up shit.

So, how could I have the audacity to even think that I'm one of the 3% of guys who can actually find a faithful lover? Am I really THAT special, or will I end up the butt of some dude's joke after he's done smacking my wife's ass?

Damn, overthinking sucks.