*shrugs*

Apparently at work I have a reputation as a player/pimp/dog/ho or some shit. I know that I'm not, but I have to admit I put myself in the situations that earned that reputation.

However, at the same time, just because I'm giving a female a hug longer than 3 seconds and tell her that she's beautiful, doesn't mean that I have, or intend to fuck with her. That's really just the kind of dude I am. Females ALL walk around feeling self-conscious for at least part of the day, I just pick up on that and try to say something to make them feel better, or better yet, smile. I don't want to fuck (although, given the chance I probably would in most cases lol) I just want to brighten up someones day.

There is one woman I work with though, who if the situation wasn't as whack as it is, I would honestly commit to. On one hand she's way older (not WAYYYYY older though), experienced, mature and responsible for me. Most girls, I think I'm too good for, but I honestly think I'm not good enough for this one, that I couldn't do as much for her as she deserves. Then, she's deeply religious and I'm an atheist. Plus, I feel like I'm so young and dumb that even if I were deeply in love with her there's a chance I could fuck up and be the reason she cries. I don't want to be that dude, not even once, EVER. I feel that way about all females though...

I don't know. I can tell she's feelin me. I can tell by the way she looks at me.

"I could be wrong, but pupils don't lie
And if they do, by God they must fry
'Fry?'
You know, like electric chair
The way you stare, yeah I'm there
You've committed a crime, and I'm the victim..."
- 3 Stacks

BUT

I gotta leave that shit alone.


Anyways, I decided I have to avoid talking to almost all the bitches I work with unless it's professional. It can't even be a passing conversation because I flirt so naturally that I'd probably flirt with my best friend's Mom right in front of him.......on accident. LOL, true story.

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